Deepa – Finding Myself
drunk, gay sex, orgasm

Hi, this is Deepak or I would rather say Deepa. This is my story about how I had sex with my friend. All this happened some years back. I am the only son of my parents. My mother died while I was very young. Dad is working, but he usually drinks and come home in a dizzy manner. I always missed mom so I started to wear her inners while sleeping or wrap her saree. By doing that I always had a hard-on. While watching porn my friends watch how sexy the girl is. But I used to admire the girl’s beauty sometime how good she is handling that big cock. But I never thought I like to have sex with other men. This all changed when my cousin came to visit us. He is 6 years elder to me. I have a lot of respect for him. Since he was here after a long time, dad threw him a party. Both these guys came home fully drunk. Dad slept in his room. My cousin and I went to my room. All things were fine. While sleeping I felt someone pressing my waist. My t-shirt was lifted and someone playing with my hips. It was him, my cousin. Telling about my body, I am 5.9” not a manly body but slim. I have a normal dick of 6 inches. I used to masturbate a lot. I have a round ass. My friends used to say all you eat is ending up in your ass. I have a large ass despite my slim body. He was pressing my ass and playing with navel at the same time. He was whispering, “Kavitha, come closer.” Shit, it is his wife’s name. He thought of me as his wife and was playing with me. To my surprise, he slid his hand inside my shorts and caressing my ass. He was rubbing the entrance with his fingers softly. I felt a tingling sensation in my stomach. Immediately my cock sprung up. I was in deadly fear. He turned me around and kissed my lips. The taste of alcohol was making me dizzy. Then he placed my hands inside his pants. His cock was not so big. Even smaller than mine. I was pretty disappointed. I don’t know why, but I was disappointed. He looks so huge but he has a smaller dick than me. He kept on rubbing my hand on his dick. And pushed my head lower. I didn’t know what to do. But something inside me wants to hold that cock and suck it clean. I gave in to the temptation. I eagerly lowered his pants and started shaking his dick. I slowly went near to it and smelled it. Even though it is small, it had an intoxicating smell. Damn, I fell for that smell. I kissed his cock once. He moaned. I licked the tip of it and engulfed it with my mouth. I started sucking his cock. He started holding my head and pushing me closer and closer to his dick. While sucking I also licked his dick. He must be on cloud nine. He came near my crotch but I held his head and pushed him in bed. I licked his dick furiously, he groaned and he came inside my mouth. Thick sperm, thicker than mine. I have my face full of cum. I looked at him. He was already sleeping like a baby. I saw myself in the mirror. My face was glowing with his cum on it. I wiped it with my fingers and licked it. I like its taste. I too slept after making his pants proper. When I woke up, things were normal. My cousin left for his home after having breakfast. My dad went to work too. I had a night full of sex dreams. I am not fucking other woman but I am the woman. I am so confused and worried. I cannot forget the taste of his cum. I masturbated for the first time wearing my mom’s inners. Even though the clothes are old, I like how it embraced my big ass. I decided to take the help of my friend. His name is Vijith. He is a rich guy. His parents are living in another place. He spends the money they send him. They send some huge money. He has a lot of girlfriends and fuck-friends. He has tons of experience in sex. So, I decided to take his help. I reached his home in just 15 minutes. I rang the doorbell. He opened the door. He was wearing shorts and nothing else. Oh, he has a hairy chest. When I entered inside, he asked, “Hey, what a surprise, usually you call me before you come. Today you came straight away.” I said, “I need to talk to you about something really personal. You need to keep it as a secret.” He gave a confused look and asked me to wait in the hall. He went inside his room and came with a girl. So she is his one night stand today. She looks good. Probably some nerd she is. He gets quite good girls in bed. She gave him a goodbye kiss and he closed the door. “Now tell,” he said. I told him what happened last night. He started laughing. It irked me. I said, “Don’t laugh da. I am in confusion whether I like men or I like to be with women or I want to be a woman.” I also told him about my hobby of wearing my mom’s clothes. He raised his eyebrows. He said, “Okay let me test you, but do what I say and don’t ask why.” I said okay. He asked me to remove my dress. I was like what. He asked me to remove again. I removed my tops and jeans. I was not wearing any inner. So my cock was dangling. He asked me to turn around. He came closer and ran his fingers over my ass. I got hard. He saw that. He laughed. He asked me to come to his room. He opened a wardrobe. There were a lot of woman clothes in it. He said proudly, “These are the dresses which women leave as a memento after they spent a night with me.” He asked me to select a dress from it. I selected a sky blue bra and matching panty. I selected a green tank top and mini jean. I wonder am I wearing a dress of the same girl or different girls. The thought of it made me hard. He clapped in anticipation and came near to me. He hugged me behind and slid his hands inside my top. He circled his fingers on my hip and blew some air in my ears. He slowly came and kissed me. I kissed in response. He cupped my breasts from the top. He removed the top and asked me to remove the mini jean and knee on the floor. I did. He removed his pants. His cock, which was a lot bigger and thicker than mine, was throbbing in front of my face. Without him saying anything, I held that monster and started kissing it. He shouted, ‘I knew you are a cock loving slut.” I was embarrassed. But I can’t let go of his cock. I just kept sucking it. That taste, that amazing smell. I can taste that nerd girl’s pussy from his cock. I am stroking my dick. He placed his feet on my hand and said, “A faggot like you is not allowed to cum using a hand. I have another idea.” He came and tore my bra and started to kiss and lick my breasts. I moaned a lot. I am going crazy. He was licking and kissing my waist. He slid his tongue inside my bellybutton. I was on cloud nine. I came. My cum fell on the floor. He said, “You bitch. You came for this itself. Now lick the bloody faggot cum from my marble floor.” I went as he said. My cum is not so thick. I licked every drop of it. He slapped my ass while I was licking my cum. He said, “It’s time to take your virginity.” He asked me to go all fours. I am in a mood to even kill someone as long his cock is for me to play. He took some lubricant and poured it on my ass. He slid one finger inside my ass. My erection went strong again. He slid another finger and kept adding fingers. I was practically being finger fucked by him. I was moaning like a girl. He wore a condom and poured some oil on it. I knew what is going to happen. I let out a huge breath. If I let it happen, there is no turning back. I cannot be the same anymore. My mind wants me to run home before I lose myself to cocks. But something inside my brain is crying to slide that cock into my ass. He placed his cock at the entrance and pushed slowly. I gasped. It’s like a rod entering. He is giving small strokes and entered fully. I screamed. At first in pain and then in pleasure. He asked, “Are you liking it bitch? How is my manly cock?” I said in shy and in pleasure, “ It’s amazing, own me like you own every girl you fuck. I am cumming.” I came again. He kept fucking me mercilessly. My ass was burning. But I am liking it. I am liking the way his cock was rubbing my prostate. It is like the porn I watch. But I am the one getting fucked. He shouted, “I am cumming.” I suddenly came away and removed the condom at once and started sucking his cock eagerly for his cum. He was surprised and shouted, “Attagirl, you are hungry for my cum it seems.” I was in no mood for his teasing. Like a hungry slut, I kept on sucking his cock. He held my head tight and came in my mouth. So thick cum and I came from drinking his cum. Such a shameless cock sucker I am. I had four orgasms back to back. I am gone. I am gone into the new womanhood. He kissed me in my lips and said, “ You are amazing Deepak, I mean Deepa from now on. You are better than all the girls I have fucked. You have that passion and hunger for my cock. Will you be my girlfriend for a while?” I said, “Okay my love,” and invited him. He came closer and started kissing my lips. Time for another round. We can move to the bathroom. He lifted me and took me to the bathroom. My journey as his lover started from now. Thus I became my friend’s lover. He opened the gate of the feminine in me. Even today I wonder what I would have done if my cousin had not come that night. I like to write about all the incidents happened. Please give your feedback to [email protected]. I am waiting for your feedback and comments.